Thoughts on negative experiences/abuse in childhood
Lately, we've definitely been more unstable in some ways, but I don't feel that it's necessarily all negative. In some way I feel that our cptsd/trauma symptoms are acting up a lot now because we've finally left the enviroment in which we were unsafe and where abuse took place for good, and aren't in daily face-to-face contact with the people who were a source of it. It's sort of like, now these symptoms are happening because they finally have space to DO so, if that makes any sense. It's bot pure survival and enduring things, and I guess subconsciously now there is space for us to GET triggered, rather than have a vague bad feeling of doom and intense anxiety, and I guess that in turn makes us more functional, when not triggered rather than having a constant low level of functioning? Not that triggers weren't a thing, we've had flashbacks before too, but these symptoms intensifying now is bc they finally have the space.