spiritual, death discussion, negative
do you have any idea what its like to WANT to believe that there's something after death, to want to believe any reincarnation, but you cant? you want to believe in someone, but youre so conditioned that even when you say you believe it in the end you still lay awake at night and think about how it will all end at death? i SUFFER thinking about this all the time having unnecessary existential crises late at night in bed and I WANT to believe anything else. most people just believe something if they want to. as hard as ive been trying, i still fall back.