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Re-doing our #introductions for age change and broken emoji.

We're the Pride System.

The history is a bit sticky, but we broke apart around body age 17 following involuntary therapy. We re-discovered ourselves about age 24. Still picking up the pieces.

The primary front is Rai 🦁​, they are 27, nonbinary, married to a singlet. Likes lions.

Skyler ​​ is a common fronter, helps with protection and emotions. He's fond of computers, coding, EDM, and video games.

Storm 🌩️​ has been getting more comfortable with front, so you may see him around. High-energy dragon-person with an affinity for... storms. He likes bottle caps, spicy food, and cats.

Rory ​​ is a mostly non-verbal little, possibly a literal lion cub. They communicate mostly in noises or pictures when fronting. They like to sleep and eat creamy things.

There are others who rarely front, but you may hear mention of them. Pepper, Stone, The Twins, and probably some others.

I'm glad I'm attending a 2-day seminar on history & atrocities committed against the indigenous people here, but I expect it to be Stressful and switch-inducing. Which feels so self-centred - but I really am grateful I get this opportunity, and i want to try to prepare for possible switching so Whoever Goes can take good notes.

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(part of) the trouble with sharing your head with two (other) lions, a dragon, and a swamp monster is when you feel the overwhelming urge to sink your teeth into something, it's impossible to tell where it's coming from. 🦁

Skyler was fronting earlier today and I was talking about something that happened with my wife, and she wanted to communicate some things to Skyler. So she raises her voice, like he's across the room or something. It's adorable.
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Re-doing our #introductions for age change and broken emoji.

We're the Pride System.

The history is a bit sticky, but we broke apart around body age 17 following involuntary therapy. We re-discovered ourselves about age 24. Still picking up the pieces.

The primary front is Rai 🦁​, they are 27, nonbinary, married to a singlet. Likes lions.

Skyler ​​ is a common fronter, helps with protection and emotions. He's fond of computers, coding, EDM, and video games.

Storm 🌩️​ has been getting more comfortable with front, so you may see him around. High-energy dragon-person with an affinity for... storms. He likes bottle caps, spicy food, and cats.

Rory ​​ is a mostly non-verbal little, possibly a literal lion cub. They communicate mostly in noises or pictures when fronting. They like to sleep and eat creamy things.

There are others who rarely front, but you may hear mention of them. Pepper, Stone, The Twins, and probably some others.

we're a bit floaty after a doctor's appointment today. we've had genital itching for "a while" - apparently we last talked to the doctor about it in April, didn't think it was that long ago. But it's nearly unbearable now. We tried some stuff last time that didn't involve the doctor sticking his hands down there, but this time it did. it also involved talking a bit about our history in regard to sex work, as that could be a factor although it was like 3 years ago now. Bit it also also included having to have a nurse chaperone the exam, simply because my doctor and my genitals don't match. I tried saying I didn't need it, but it wasn't a choice. Pepper first split due to sex work trauma, we think particularly relating to gender. so overall, this whole thing. Strange guy with his fingers inside me, denying my gender, talking about that stuff.... we're just not all here right now. And Pepper is more here than usual.

Jerks on the internet: selective mutism means you're just choosing not to speak.

Me, physically straining to try to return my wife's "I love you": :')

We are dripping down down down deep into the dark the crust is a thick numb rubbery shell, clumsy and slow, and we are a Spark sifting down in the dusty depths

Y'all ever get home from work, eat an entire pizza, then go nonverbal for the rest of the night? 🤔

funny how my massively spotty memory can be both a massive annoyance and a massive comfort. Like, no, I don't remember much between 2015 and now, and 2001 to 2014 is pretty much empty, BUT that means there's probably something for real wrong with me! so I've got that goin for me at least!

Why does Rai talk to so many people at work. At their old job if I had to front I could get away with not talking to anyone EASY. But here they... Have friends and stuff. I can't even go get coffee without having 4 conversations (not an exaggeration).

I'm glad for them but it's confusing for me.

Rai had a weird flashback last night and I've been in front since. It will be a fun day of trying to avoid too much conversation with their coworkers!

The playlist they made for me is sweet, but some of the songs miss the mark a bit.

I got to ride the bike to work today and it is literal freezing temperatures and our face is on fire. But it was fun! :8_asterisk: I think that one's mine

We've been like, a lil low-key switchy for a few days because Stuff Is Stressful, and I really just gotta say I Appreciate Skyler. ​Which is a bit wild when I think about who he used to be, but who he is now is cool and calm and steady and I appreciate the hell out of that. Feeling him gently tug the reins away from me when shit gets bad is such a relief sometimes.

It's not all perfect obviously, but several times recently have been good and I just want to tell him "Thanks"

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The twins are horrifying and I know what they are now is my fault but I don't know why they're back at all and I don't know why they're Like This

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Co-fronting, not confronting...

confronting adventure with Skyler today, which I didn't realize until I had to go to the bathroom and was viscerally uncomfortable with which room I had to use. which. as a nonbinary person I'm usually like "Ugh." over gendered bathrooms, but not usually That degree of wrongness.

and then I realized the crowds and subject matter stuff at this work event had caused me to dissociate a lil and someone else was helping steer.

ironic, considering at one point it was specifically mentioned that going numb or "checking out" of stressful situations is Bad Weak Monkey Brain and we need to not do that.......... funny. didn't realize it was a choice.

Left to right: Storm, Pepper, and Skyler.

Or: Stacked Lizardman, Thicc Flirt, and Emo Bastard

makin The Pride in Sims 4 and Skyler won't stop laughing at the concept of him doing exercise for long enough to give me an opinion on his sportswear outfit, so He's Wearin A Bathrobe And That's Final