pl feels, affections, directed at reader, sincere
I love and appreciate everything you've sent me. If you can see this, I appreciate you, whether you be future or if we've met in the past (at time of writing)
I know we haven't been posting much. I don't know if this will be a single post in the void. But I do think of you often. Writing is just, a challenge lately..
But I think I'm getting better at dealing with that!
And writing more.
re: 420, dissociation, personal, +
I am still not sure how these breakdowns of how my mind works are helping me or no, yet... Feels like progress each time, though.
I am usually feeling pretty confident that I'm some form of median
I am also noticing I am feeling consistently about: the concept of plurality/singlet as some kind of spectrum of awareness; that the basic mechanics of all brains formed of neurons, is amenable to both descriptions
and it's more a matter of "how much are you aware of this" and also "what tools have you found in this space"
and i really hope im finding good tools..
I know I'm finding good friends <3
re: 420, dissociation, personal, ~
I seem to hold a thread of consciousness pretty tightly while spinning through this place.
I'm mostly out of it now. It looks familiar out here too: carefully clinging to a thread that defines how I want my life story to go, but it gets tossed back and forth wildly along the way
I can feel myself holding onto that thread, going back a few steps now and then, to write something down so I make sure I answer questions someone asked, or remind myself of something.
420, dissociation, personal, ~
Hey we're feeling really dissociated and we think we're switching fronts or becoming aware of more of us at once, or in sequence rapidly.
We are feeling pretty depressed overall lately, but hoping we're working on making it all better, and feeling like progress is coming soon, in a lot of ways. Not sure how soon, but soon.
Is this account one where we censor the names of us? We think so. Anyways.
We are pretty sure "A" is actually not just one. We think that's more than one of us, and we're actually trying to put names on us too quickly, before we've figured out how many of us even are in here
screenshot of tumblr, medication interactions, dissociation, humor
a story about mixing nyquil and redbull on accident in highschool, when sick.
Walked into school at 7:30 AM and then immediately the last bell rang and school was over.
Potion selled. I am going into school and I need your STRONGEST dissociation.
(Hey can I not do image captions on plural.cafe? I'm on desktop ... WAIT no it fuckin popped up saying i needed to add a description? I think my GUI is broken)
I like how the pride flags on Wikimedia Commons are hand-written SVG. This is the entirety of the trans pride flag:
<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?> <svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" viewBox="0 0 800 480"> <path fill="#5BCEFA" d="M0 0h800v480H0z"/> <path fill="#F5A9B8" d="M0 96h800v288H0z"/> <path fill="#FFF" d="M0 192h800v96H0z"/> </svg>
subtoot + affections
We like you all, it’s good, things are good
We’re frustrated and confused, but that’s maybe not a bad thing
The concept of thinking before we talk doesn’t come naturally yet
Running away was the wrong decision but we’ll be back as soon as we can
A wants to get their instance back up if possible, maybe it will help us chill
Feels a bit like A is on break and we’re in “pending” mode:
Still acting mostly like ourselves, but waiting to hear back on something
Really trying to read other people very carefully and try and make up for all the impulsive behavior A causes?
We don’t really have a name for any subsystem/headmate/etc other than A (which is an abbreviation not a one letter name)
But we feel like someone else is fronting and they sort of have consistent enough personality enough to maybe justify a name?
plural feels? affections, ~+
Real frustrated over who’s who and how we be
System stuff? Idk
But overall more excited about enbies tbh
Prob not gonna see em today but texting is fun~
I dunno which of us they met last time we hung out, but maybe we can drop all the anxiety and just be a blushing mess instead
That’s much easier to handle eh?
plural, personal, ---
Who is even writing this?
We don’t understand
We don’t believe it
We feel it but we don’t believe it
Is this A?
Is this how A feels negative emotions?
Or is this one of the others?
Is this despair a subsystem or a behavior of a subsystem?
Are we plural?
Or is all of this something else?
Communication is very difficult
No lewds here please.
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