reality distortion sucks. been feelin like our current room/place we live in keeps warpin into our ab*sers house if im not focusin on my surroundings actively yikes
-Daniel

but ya our instagram is @themistsystem feel free n go follow lmao
-Daniel

discussion on discourse / endo gatekeepin 

Also, weve mostly moved to insta (@themistsystem) an feel that the community there s more relatable n better w helpin us through our experiences, even tho many of em are v anti-endo. We aint, we still accept any sys who reqs us an our views stay the same as "so long endo systems dont claim space from DID/OSDD systems (traumagenic) or invade their discussions etc, theres no problem lmao" - we still see endos as systems or collectives, jus with a diff kinda experience than we do as a traumagenic DID sys (btw dx officially confirmed) obviously. We jus happen to find it easier to relate to ppl whove been through shit like us, an know what its like etc

Ig all this can sound kinda shitty but I jus wanna talk abt my personal opinion for a lil. This also aint a thing to start discourse on, we know n accept ppl got very diff opinions an thats fine, were not tryin to change yours. But like also be decent n dont @ me for havin my own.
-Daniel

some changes in the system, updatin here after a long time lol:

Toby, who weve thought to be a fragment actually fronted for a full day n revealed he aint as much a fragment as we thought, jus extremely quiet n possibly sorta mute?? altho im not familiar w different kindsa mutism or the symptoms/crit for it

Also the two kiddos, unnamed littles who dont rly speak english have come forwards a few times now n usually come close to front when were goin to bed lol. Still dunno much bout em, but the ages are more clearly like, 4-5 & 1-2 yrs old, not rly 100% on this tho but ya, theyre v young

-Daniel

Alcohol cw// 

Like fuck I hate the body for bein so unpredictable n also w switches when the person b4 ya drinkd it be like, im not drunk but the body is, lets have a lil more cuz im fine etc, ends w body bein barely responsive n not bein able to focus much. Big yike cuz its so hard to fuckin estimate @ that point oof
-D

its pride in our city in fuckall, nowhere but like we goin, lol
-D

ptsd symptoms/ 

Like all of us get hella nightmares every now n again but im the one whos always the most restless n can barely even fall asleep w/o stayin up til like 5am, so that sucks. Even when I do fall asleep I kinda jus wake up every hour-ish cuz I cant stay asleep so I end upp jus bein super fuckin tired all day lmao oof
it doesnt help that weve been dealin w extra anxiety n a lotta flareups too
-D

I sleep like shit, I feel like shit, but hey at leas we start uni today
-D

food, sorta lewd ment for memez 

Look im the same guy who had the bright idea to eat some fuckin pretzel sticks by chompin down on the MIDDLE like fuckin horizontally ya know? At a dead fucken party to make that person who called chocolate "cocck" for memes once laugh their ass off

-D

food, memey pda ment 

Ya ever crave salt like so fuckin bad. Like your bodys jus the opposite of dehydrated. Like bitch jus needs some mfin sodium type shit? Like "if I had a himalayan salt lamp id be str8 up makin out w that thing atm" type cravin?

-D

Adulting is boring, I wanna draw but theres dishes to do...
- (Spell)

Meeting our possible new therapist for the first time today! Nervous but also sort of excited, we haven't been in therapy in a while and it's about time
- Uta

Thoughts on negative experiences/abuse in childhood 

Lately, we've definitely been more unstable in some ways, but I don't feel that it's necessarily all negative. In some way I feel that our cptsd/trauma symptoms are acting up a lot now because we've finally left the enviroment in which we were unsafe and where abuse took place for good, and aren't in daily face-to-face contact with the people who were a source of it. It's sort of like, now these symptoms are happening because they finally have space to DO so, if that makes any sense. It's bot pure survival and enduring things, and I guess subconsciously now there is space for us to GET triggered, rather than have a vague bad feeling of doom and intense anxiety, and I guess that in turn makes us more functional, when not triggered rather than having a constant low level of functioning? Not that triggers weren't a thing, we've had flashbacks before too, but these symptoms intensifying now is bc they finally have the space.
-Uta

triggers, no trauma details but talkin bout our reaction etc/ 

Like ya know its p bad when ya keep shakin hard for 6hrs str8 after someone ELSE relives a trauma in cofront an makes the body react too oof. its gettin better now for sure but I was nauseous, headachey, shaky n generally felt weak n panicky for the rest of the day til it finally started sorta fadin out bc I talked abt it a lil bit to someone. sucked, but at leas its over lol. now im jus tryin to keep my mind busy n keep that part from comin close to front so we dont spiral/get triggered again yikes

-Daniel

An again 2hrs have passed. today was hella rough for us, flashbacks n some bad switches. Still feelin the physical effects of that too but im gettin there.
-D

Met another 1 of our roommates today. She was aight, looks like we got an english student, a psych student an a culture studies student (us lol) in the same house which seems like a good combo lol
-D

yooo we livin on our own now, moved yesterday mdudes
-Daniel

Its the end of the heatwave an NOW mum decides to mention we gotta fan we could put in my room? Ffs
-D

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