socrates 😈 @mcbadger@plural.cafe

☀️/🌺 - mord/poppy (the 'host')
☠️ - gaz
👑 - yeq

and socrates doesn't sign anything because this is his account, goddamnit

we switched! joey got out for long enough to introduce himself to muir partner and also apparently watch an episode of monster factory. i'm still experiencing blackouts for the most part, but a few slivers of vivid memories of what the inside of the headspace looks like inspire hope. now i'm back in front i'm utterly fucking exhausted

eating a baguette by slicing it, pushing out the centre of the slice, balling it up, eating that and then eating the crust-ring

peering in on headspace is like tapping on a room in tomodachi life sometimes

🐱: 'listen, what the fuck is the point of having DID in high school if not to cheat all your exams'

'one of the stories i used to tell people about you is how you offered to front during my math final because you were better at it than me, but i refused because it was 'cheating''
🐱: 'both times'
'both times!'
🐱: 'what did you get the second time?'
'53%! again!'
🐱: 'do you regret not letting me help now?'
'lil bit!!'

talked extensively about plurality with gabe last night, which was very cathartic. ended up talking about how i'm pretty sure the old cohost still exists inworld somewhere. so 🔪 took it upon himself to go find the guy and bring him into my living room. i'm... obviously very happy/emotional to see him but i'm pretty fuckin' peeved at 🔪 for the moment

if you're worried about the context of these toots i've posted anout the situation on muir main (linked in the bio) but tl;dr: there's no longer any immediate emergency and we're just sticking around for tests

legitimately, one of my first thoughts when they told me they'd sent an ambulance is 'i have to tidy the house and put a nice shirt on'. priorities!! i had time to do that /and/ stabilize the patient, so there

gaz: i'm also... significantly less cool in an emergency;; still very able to get the job done, but hoo boy muir physical anxiety / adrenaline response is bad rn and i /definitely/ don't have that same dangerous calm that socs has in crisis mode

gaz: it's established that i'm super not okay with needles. but unlike the rest of the system, i'm totally nonplussed by anything vomit-related? 🤔

☠️ shit i'm forgetting to sign posts
it's hard on mobile okay

schizophrenia isn't the same as DID except when it totally is

how many discourses would wei start if wei unironically called muirself schizogenic

https://twitter.com/dril/status/216201920438734849

😈: https://twitter.com/dril/status/378130907804098560
☠️: https://twitter.com/dril/status/473265809079693312
👑: https://twitter.com/dril/status/760934899037634561

uses 'yr' and 'ur' in the same sentence
who am i

this morning wei faked a suicide attempt to force someone to actually Do Something about the mh situation and it worked way better than intended
(when i say 'faked' i literally mean just called a crisis line and said 'hi i tried to kms')
got seen by an assessor within the hour. walked out with a psych referral, rec for a trauma specialist and a suggestion to try medical cbd. felt listened to for the first time in years. still hate doctors but it's somethin'

+ probably the best political ideology to pitch to a chaotic evil person to get them on board with the idea of mutual aid
- now he won't stop describing everything he dislikes as 'bougie'

mostly it was just that he lives in you came on my spotify and he happened to be around to be on the receiving end of that
it's one of those songs you gotta sing /at/ someone, y'know?

aggressively singing disney songs at your asshole soulbond sounds like some kind of parody of what 'reforming' a persecutor is envisaged to look like
but like. it can't hurt, right?

me: nah i wouldn't say paranoia impacts my interpersonal life too much actually
some masto user: [compliments my display name]
me: i'm going to find out where you live and murder you in preemptive self defense