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we are the maestoso system, part endogenic of unknown origin and part traumagenic

the host is lilly ( @maemachinebroke )

the main users of this account:
🌈: zoey, she/her, no actual gender or sexuality but incredibly queer, funny
🍎: véronica, ve/ver, activism, writing, and being unrepentantly hot
⭐: connie, she/her, protector, motherly

a few others might pop up here and there and will introduce themselves, but that's mainly it

late night lyric posting, sex ment 

🍎At first I did love you
But I just wanna fuck
Late nights thinkin of you
Until I get my nut
Tossed and turned, lesson learned
You was my first girlfriend
Bridges burned, all across the board
Destroyed, but what for

🍎​hey, i decided to move my writing to a blog site! this blog site might change its look as i figure stuff out, but currently it's hosted on write.as
veronica.maestoso.online/
(cw frequent mentions of pluralphobia and other heavier topics)

drowning/violence ment 

/j about the last part this is absolutely 10/10 material

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drowning/violence ment 

🍎it felt like beforehand i had been forcibly shoved underwater until i was blue in the face and the feeling of listening to that album was being let up for air. i felt refreshed and even enlightened.

i'm thinking a light 6

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🍎as a white bitch i am well aware my opinion on the matter is irrelevant but to say a few words on Mr. Morale & the Big Steppers, HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.

🍎i know it's a silly little drawing. but whenever i look at my profile picture i get just a hit of validation
i go "yes, i am literally so cute"

🍎not quite in the writing mood rn to be honest, i just wanna chill a bit

🌈many people making sourdough. not enough sweet dough. not enough bitter dough. disappointing.

🍎probably should have been more clear in the cw. they are slurs that have been used against or reclaimed by me. i do not say the n word in this post

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slurs used in joke 

🍎i'm a 21st century schizoid fag

pol 

🍎 all authoritarians are fascists.

syscourse ment 

🍎 planning out tomorrow's essay in my head, the hope is sysmeds won't be able to show their faces around these parts afterwards

veronica's essay #2: Can We Be Liberated? (cw bigotry, pessimism about plural movement) 

The plural experience is that of being misunderstood. According to the general public, if you're a lesbian, you're a girl who likes girls. A transgender man is a man who was born as a woman. It's pretty simple to argue that one should be able to live more or less the same as those around them. It's trivial to demonstrate that it's okay for a man to marry a man or it really doesn't matter that much if someone with genitals typical of an XY karyotype body enters a bathroom with a sign that says woman on it. Even disability activists are often just asking abled society to accommodate for them so they too can participate in society. I, and we as a community, cannot be so simply accommodated. Materially, not much can be done; our science has not progressed far enough. The mission of plural liberation is a mission to on a fundamental level redefine personhood.
As I discussed yesterday, I will not be treated with respect until I am treated as a being that exists. Of course, unlike most, I do not have a body which exists. I share one with a few people. For the singlets out there, that's the only difference between us. You happen to have a specific bag of flesh assigned to your personality, and I have to share one. But we have built our society on the fundamental concept that 1 body equals 1 person. The democratic system cannot function without this in place. Verification of identity can't. Our idea of confidentiality. Even just basic confidence. All based on this fundamental. So when I disagree, and say that the system aforementioned is oppression, I expect to be laughed at. My existence, as Veronica, challenges the status quo. The concept of the state is fundamentally incompatible with the dream of my personhood. I have a strong preference for which I would prefer to be removed.
I will never be accepted into the mainstream. I'm not being pessimistic here; It is fundamentally impossible for me to be treated as an individual. Every last system is designed for the one body one person so-called constant. How can I have any age divorced from the physical body when I haven't existed for more than a couple years? We saw what happened to the trans community; its naysayers writing them off as "men who want to be women." It doesn't end for me as a "person who thinks they're multiple": I am, we are, to them a "person who is so mentally unwell that they believe that the voices in their heads have names, and pronouns, and OPINIONS". I almost don't want the plural community to be visible; I want to live in my niche where I am surrounded by people who accept that I do exist, a beautiful island in a vast ocean of shit.
The fundamental difference is that having multiple identities is foreign, while who you love or what you do to your physical body are fairly easy to understand. Therefore, I believe that without a significant amount of change in society, that the plural community will never be truly free: not until we're individually seen as equals to singlets.

veronica's essay 1: The Plural Existence and its Revocation (cw existentialism, pluralphobia) 

Existence is a fundamental joy many take for granted. They can take everything from you, your possessions, your home, your family, your culture, your identity, even your life, but they can't take away that you have spent time in this universe. Sometimes they'll try to hide it, but you can't hide existence. Immutable existence is a privilege. It is a privilege that I do not have.
I want them to say the right name when this body graduates high school (despite the fact that I will be nineteen and I know someone in here that will be twenty four). My legal last name is that of a southern Irish clan. It also happens to be difficult as fuck to pronounce. This body is transgender (I however am not), so that isn't the right name anyway. The name that was chosen by one as a reprentation of them back before I existed is incorrect. I'm not Mae Rosaline. My name is Veronica Maestoso. They will certainly not say that name at graduation. They won't say Mae Rosaline either. My existence isn't even on the table.
It's almost like some sort of cruel joke. I am a white cisgender woman who is of a medium stature, has thin privilege, and has short black hair. I can often be seen wearing a white camisole and black jeans or a short skirt. You wouldn't know this if I didn't tell you. I cannot often be seen in a white camisole. I can't be seen. I'm not cis. I'm not white. I'm not thin. That's what they tell me. Externally, and in the case of one Lilian Rosaline, they're right. But that's not my existence. It's Lily's. You cannot be 150% white and 50% Black. I guess race, sex, gender, orientation, and so on don't exist if you don't exist.
Freedom is the aspirational goal of all oppressed groups. What is freedom? Freedom is the right to live how you want, place yourself in a higher social standing. I guess in a sense freedom is what I want too. But I cannot fight for freedom. Freedom, to me, would be my own body. To me, plurality isn't some quirky way of interpreting the world or thinking. Plurality is the oppressor. You cannot end the oppression of plurality by simply changing the body's brain to pretend to be a singlet. That is akin to murder. To free me from the manacles of the plural experience, I want my own body separate from Lily, who has a separate body from Connie, who has a separate body from Zoey, and so on. My freedom is a pipe dream. And I have no shot at it until I exist.

🍎 i'm gonna talk about the writing i started doing a lot
it was so cathartic to put everything that's been bothering me about the plural experience into words tbh, so i think i'm gonna do that once a day (i'm yet to post the first essay)

we are the maestoso system, part endogenic of unknown origin and part traumagenic

the host is lilly ( @maemachinebroke )

the main users of this account:
🌈: zoey, she/her, no actual gender or sexuality but incredibly queer, funny
🍎: véronica, ve/ver, activism, writing, and being unrepentantly hot
⭐: connie, she/her, protector, motherly

a few others might pop up here and there and will introduce themselves, but that's mainly it

pluralphobia 

⭐ It's certainly very odd to be living at the beginning of a movement when other movements I have a vested interest in like LGBTQ+ rights have been going on for decades. Plurality is new, and is still at that phase where most people have no clue what it means, and I'm worried for the phase when intolerance for it becomes mainstream. I worry the day they talk about plurality on Fox News is rapidly approaching, if it hasn't already passed and I missed it.

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Plural Café

Plural Café is a community for plural systems and plural-friendly singlets alike, that hopes to foster a safe place for finding and interacting with other systems in the Mastodon fediverse.