catnip.sys θΔ (collectively they/them) @furgottenCatnip@plural.cafe

hiii so we've been on here fur a little bit now but have yet to make an #introduction - we've been putting it off 'cause we're not too great at this type of thing, but we'll try our best :33

soo, i'm nepeta, the host of the catnip system. i'm 25 years old and i identify as a catgender girlboy currently, although have been exploring my gender identity again recently, but generally please use mew/mews pronouns fur me, and they/them fur us collectively (u can call us nepeta collectively but it might be a little confusing fur us so maybe call us the catnips?) most of the time it's me, or a blend of me and others that its a bit blurry to tell. we're a system of 7, not really 100% sure of our origin (we wouldn't be surprised if it was trauma related, though) we're white (although certainly not proud of it), autistic, disabled (we have fibromyalgiia and generally qualify fur disability on the grounds of our mental illness), and all very queer, additionally we're kittyfox otherkin, and that's what the theta delta in our username means! we really, really like video games, and also comics, cartoons, tv shows, listening to music, and movies (most of the time our avatar will probably be a kinnie of one of our's, ehe) and although its definitely 99% me piloting when we're doing it, we really enjoy streaming and doing graphic design too and are also trying to learn to draw better!

about me, nepeta (mew/mews) - i really like streaming and playing video games, particularly super smash bros has always been a big special interest of mine and i've played it competively a lot over the years - i actually host a weekly fur a niche mod of it that i adore called 4xM which has a very tight knit, accepting, and supportive community (they thank me like every week fur hosting T_T) my kin list is far too long to list but as u may have guessed one of the big ones is nepeta leijon from homestuck, a couple other big ones are roxy lalonde (homestuck), steven universe, and rue bennett (euphoria) and skitty (pokemon). if it isn't clear, i really like cat puns :33

annd my beloved headmates <3

🗝Roxas (he/they) - a very, very protective headmate, and a kinnie (pawsibly a fictive? but.. we're not totally sure and have always felt kin was more fitting, or somewhere in between - this applies to all of our headmates) of roxas from kingdom hearts. he's been around the longest out of any of my headmates, as i can remember brief conversations with him as far back as 2013. very, very nice and friendly as long as he trusts u, although he may be a bit cold otherwise.

✨Glimmer (fae/faer) - extremely bubbly, glimmer would love to be ur furriend! faes an age slider(we think, at least - we still haven't completely figured out all the terms and how they apply to us) that slides between 13 and the age of the rest of the system, 25 - fae is our age most of the time, but slides when very comfurtable and relaxed, or sometimes it's completely out of faer control, which has happened a bit and unfurtunately there isn't really an in between. it's pretty easy to tell when glimmer is age sliding as fae will type in third purrson. fae has been around since june 2020, and is a kin of glimmer from she-ra and the princesses of power!

🕸Vris (she/they) - another protector and kin of /the/ vriska homestuck, she came around when roxas wasn't here fur an extended purriod of time, around 2020. can get very angry, but generally its in a protective way. probably the hardest to get close to out of everyone, she's not around a ton either.

❄Snow (he/they) - kin of akechi from purrsona 5. mostly very relaxed and the calming presence of the group. comes around a lot more in the winter, but generally can help calm us down a lot.

🦊Miles (he/him) - kin of tails from the sonic the hedgehog series, miles is a very cute femboy and he is incredibly smart, and also another calming, relaxing presence. came around only a couple months ago but has been around more than anyone else recently.

💜Vivian (she/her) - kin of vivian from paper mario the thousand year door! we don't really know much about vivian yet other than that she's very shy and is a ghost girl. she came around a bit after miles but we've still not really been able to talk much.

arf! :33

we went from 29k on singles leaderboard to 70k and 618 on steven to over 1000 (we didnt even check after the last set its probably like 1500 now lmfao)

not like we were even any 'good' in the furst place lmfao

guess its back to either going 2-2 in ultimate and not having fun or going 0-2 in p+ and having fun but never making any progress

we've played p+ since fucking 2013 u would think we could go not 0-2 at tripoint idfc if its the most stacked weekly or whatever im just fucking awful at video games lmfao

just finished playing mvs fur like an hour in which we lost almost every single game and are now crying about it because we're pathetic and thought we found something we were good at but it tturns out as usual i'm not good at anything

we changed our input device on discord to our audio interface and suddenly all the audio on my pc got extremely compressed and corrupted? like it sounded like everything was coming out of a glitchy gameboy cartridge (like old pokemon creepypasta shit)

but, whew, restarting fixed it. that was legitimately scary (also kinda cool and interesting but legitimately scary due to our creepypasta upbringings djfjdj)

wanna,, matter,,,

feeling so discombobulated and disassociatey and depressed tonight and just im so worthless and such a burden

wanna be given the same amnt of care and love that i give ;;

gosh im SO gay crushing so hard on a couple ppl,,,, oops,,

iiw anna feeel like i matter to them iit jist gfreels like i dont so much im sorry

sssorry

i wish i mattered
i feel so worthless and unimportant and unattractive i wish i was hotter and i just eish i sas more o wanna be more for them

waah we bought our headset like monday and it just went on sale fur $36 cheaper today :(

im gay

does a bot fur this exist on the fediverse cos it should

little mouse, owl house, frilly blouse, boop!