Owls @candlebrae@plural.cafe

(Lol started typing this in weirder earth, expected it to be 2 or 3 toots, then it kept going so i was like heck it, bring it here.)

I saw a little comedy video piece with an autistic standup basically doing the ol' "flip the script" (treating autism as the norm, nonautism as pathologised)

But one thing he said stuck out to me, and i remembered just now when i just had a whinge about routine (again) at another pal (paraphrased, because i don't remember exactly):

"[My nonautistic brother] goes to a school that's tailored to his specialised learning needs"

And... that's exactly it, right?

I didn't really get it, fully, until now, that i am actually studying on Hard Mode. I mean, I've dialled back the difficulty by studying part-time but...

Living on my own means there's a Lot of day-to-day stuff I Must do, by myself, unprompted and unsupported. The way ADHD usually works is basically in direct opposition to what's needed for daily living, so a large portion of my energy is used in the Most Inefficient Manner Possible.

The way the classes are set up prevents settling into a daily routine; the way terms are structured prevents settling into a weekly routine. This means more mental effort is spent on building a routine, and figuring out / remembering what comes next. Again, this is inefficient use of my brain.

And the learning structure itself? I do part time because, on top of the above, i do not have room in my brain to really engage with 3-4 topics at once.

Traditional teaching - presumably somewhat suitable for NT folk - is the exact opposite of how i learn. They mix up topics more, I'm best to stick with one or two more intensely, with a refresher later on. They teach top-down, eg they've given us a reading that includes the types of qualitative research, similarities and differences. We've started looking (one per week) at a journal article and answered questions on it. Most likely we'll soon get a journal article that's one of those subtypes, and the following week one that's another. "It's this type of qualitative study due to xyz features"

Fuck that. I learn bottom-up. Gimme a journal article or two, study it/them closely, pick out some features (or similarities & differences), and then go, "okay, so those features you picked out makes that one xyz type, and this one abc type. Here's the difference in purpose / use. Here's another article to compare to those, etc etc" until we get through the types.

And the way a lot of classes are set up like "okay we'll learn these things to a basic level now, then we'll learn them in more detail next year, and even more detail the final year" or we could just jump in and get straight into learning it to the extent we'll need to? We can revise it again later.

Yeah. The NTs are getting classes roughly tailored to how they learn best, I'm getting the opposite. I'm basically only managing as well as i am because i'm part time, pretty good at remembering / making connections, and have a fair bit of background understanding already.

But I'm also struggling the whole way because /basically every major aspect of my life is set up in direct opposition to how my brain works best/. That's playing on hard mode.

(This isn't to dismiss their struggles - poorer memory (though mine's been getting worse, too), having to do home/ADL stuff AS WELL AS full-time study, many of them don't have a heck of a lot of background knowledge to make current learning easier, most of them are also reasonably fresh out of highschool and so having to figure out independence, personal responsibility & management, sensibly managing newfound freedoms, etc etc)

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*pat pat pat*

wait holy fuck i just realized

you know that thing where you make cakes that are extremely realistic replicas of other stuff

and like, you deceive people into thinking it's not cake, and then they're surprised when it's cake

does that mean that the cake...

i mean, the cake is... it's...

the cake is a...

i mean

the cake...

kilopronouns, megapronouns, gigapronouns, terapronouns

i think it’s lost on people, maybe they’re desensitized, how many rap and r&b songs are just about how incredibly horny our narrator is

All together, Molnar estimates that "in addition to the aforementioned 25 sub-trees and 2,200 commits, the fast-headers tree modifies over half of all kernel source files in existence." It's going to change 25,288 files with 178,024 insertions and 74,720 deletions. In other words, "Yeah, so this is probably the largest single feature announcement in LKML's [Linux Kernel Mailing List] history. Not by choice! 😕"

https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=2762291114

what is a slide rule but a floating point unit for the soul

nonhuman animals have feelings, affections, rich internal lives. i will never understand humans who proudly & relentlessly try to educate others into the lie that we don't.

*continuously puts off my nervous breakdown for a more convenient time*

what was that line about scheduling maintenance?

Here’s something neither war nor turmoil related to cleanse your timeline: my cat wearing a rug like a cape.