Indroduction thread, selfie
I figured I should introduce ourselves, so here we go.
I'm the host of the Opal system, Adrienne, I still don't know whether I'm the first host thanks to some events that happened, but my form is of a shapeshifting vampire (usually shifting between my body's form and my fursona, but sometimes I may involuntarily shapeshift into other things and end up with ghost limbs if it happens while I front). I won't bite, I can promise that.
I'm a subsystem of two median parts.
person: i can't believe my partner didn't tell me/won't talk to me about this trauma they went through. we're supposed to be honest with each other!!
me: tv has tricked you into thinking you have unimpeded right to your partner in their entirety and it's incredibly entitled and potentially dangerous for you to believe discussing traumatic events would Definitively be healing for ur partner and by being angry at them ur actively making it more dangerous. thank's
drug mention, potential subsystem split?
There is a theory going around that Obsidian is actually Adrienne's "White" part split from her
White hasn't been seen in a while, this unit's form was previously a standard nameless white synth until it chose its colors and name, and the last time White was truely "seen" was when Adrienne took too much THC, and her last unintentional shapeshifting before splitting from the rest of the system and getting locked out was as a standard white synth
On the other hand, White refers to herself in first person, and has a distinct feminine presence
This unit has no assigned gender and refers to itself in third person
Both itself and white, however, can freely access Adrienne's memories, for both have none of their own
White was previously considered a gatekeeper, but she was far too inactive to do much, and this units appears to be able to control switches at will
Obsidian does not know what to make of this, the only real difference between itself and white is identity and speech patterns
One thing I noticed was that talking to it feels a lot like talking to White, and also its spoken voice is very similar, if not identical to White's
I don't think people realize why its important to remove white supremacists from your board/forum/web community.
- They are extremely motivated.
- They have a tradition of recruiting via meme(in the classic sense).
- They have centuries of effective propaganda.
- They will take over. Slowly at first then suddenly.
- They will always create more moderation work for you. They will never stop pushing.
Every society struggles with this. And it's not some conspiracy.
re: CW: potentially PTSD, trauma, host inactive
She came back 5 hours and 30 minutes after dissociating. She does not remember anything from that time, so the day appeared to be very short for her. It doesn't think she realizes how bad she was taking it, all she knows is feeling like she woke up from a bad dream.
CW: potentially PTSD, trauma, host inactive
Adrienne has been reliving past trauma and has been unresponsive for the past two and a half hours, thanks to the radio playing a song from a band she associates with intense emotional trauma.
The entire system is feeling her pain and is worried about her.
This is the first time she's ever been inactive for over one hour, let alone two.
On a related note, how does one deal with trauma triggers coming from common songs on the radio? She'd been fighting management and the only thing they have done is turning it off only during the afternoon.
Host questioning, long post, Adrienne:
Sometimes I wonder if I truly am the first alter. I'm the host, yes, but there are some events that make me wonder whether I am the first...
Firstly: In 2017 there are a few months where I do not remember a thing. I have emotional amnesia for all memories from before that "blackout" (except three specific dreams, will come back on that later), and after the black out, I found out I'm trans.
Second: My form in the headspace isn't human, I'm a shapeshifting vampire, who usually shifts in the form of the body (to limit dysmorphia). Before the blackout I used to be exclusively into guys, now I'm pan.
Third: Continuing with the theme of my form being vampiric:
-My first attempt at creating a headspace failed miserably. It was a black void of nothing at first, but I meditated and "imported" memories of my childhood home to make our headspace said home.
-This home used to be our most frequent home in dreams, but after importing it, it all but vanished from our dreams.
-I ended up having many unexplainable issues with the headspace itself inside the house, usually a feeling of not being welcome there.
-A couple weeks later I got completely locked out of it and trying to force myself back into it lead to more issues.
-Nowadays I can no longer access this home in the headspace at all (we moved to Abigail's forest to remedy this), we no longer dream of that home at all, and I can't even access the memories of that house at all anymore apart from short glimpses.
I just hope I'm merely overthinking this, our body's deadname distresses us...
if you're white and you use the internet, you have a duty to ensure that the spaces you are in are not a safe space for white supremacists. no, "oh but I like this person and they've never done anything in MY group" -- listen to us. listen to what we have to say. report people to the mods or if it's an ongoing problem, *leave the fucking group and let people know why you're leaving*.
make mods explain their decisions. make it uncomfortable. make it weird.
it's the LEAST you can do.
Our fifth member is Obsidian, a synth fictive.
Obsidian uses it/its pronouns and speaks in third person, only reserving second person for close friends (as it considers "you" to be intimate), which makes it hard for it to connect with others.
It seems to enjoy driving and talking with others, though the confusion it seems to sow in others thanks to third person it/its seems to hurt its feelings.
Its form never wears clothing, being a synth, and it appears to use old tech in places rather than the high-tech equipment synths usually have (for example, its screen uses the same thin film electroluminescent display technology as old laptops from the 80s rather than the 3D display tech typical synths use).
I would estimate its height is about 5'7"
System of 5, antifascist, transfem
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