Barkeep @Barkeep@plural.cafe

well

I feel better

I love all of you

apparently it's #InternationalNonBinaryDay, on birdsite anyway

hug a cute nb person for me please

(I can't find the original source of this pic - https://weheartit.com/entry/221197142)

*sighs* yes Frisk

yes I think you are cute

I do actually think humans are capable of being cute. as much as it galls me sometimes

something that really bothers me that I see a weird amount of the time is well-meaning people making posts that are meant to generally reassure others that the world around them is real/bad delusions are not.

E.g. im borrowing from another site:
"If you’re reading this, you’re real.
You’re not in a coma, you’re not dreaming, you’re not in a simulation. I’m real and I’m telling you that you too, are indeed real."

Like. I get the good intentions here. i know it's supposed to be reassuring. but if i'm not already delusional in that way and don't need that reassurance, it can actually be triggering?

It's like someone telling you "don't worry, I'm not stealing" out of the blue. Like, I *wasn't* worried about it, but *now* I am because that's weird to just say when I didn't ask for reassurance.

Like of course I'm in a simulation if i'm getting people specifically and unpromptedly reassuring me I'm not. :V

(thankfully thats not set in for me rn)

like in general it might be a good idea, unless a specific person requests otherwise, to not try to reassure psychotic ppl of reality unless they've actively asked for reassurance or you know them personally and have a pre-established care plan for when they're actively delusional.

What the fuck kind of evolutionary failure resulted in the human body decide that a good response to a minor illness is to have the nose produce a fucking ocean of liquid in a single day
-🎵​

oops, we hyperfocused and wrote a new system info doc instead of going to sleep

gonna double check it in the near future and use it as a new intros post

@maddox and I are finishing up the Pathfinder employment training program and have received two job offers. One is a part-time sales associate position at Things Engraved, and the other is a part-time senior sales ambassador position at LUSH. Both of these locations are in the same mall, about twenty minutes from our house.

I'm so excited to get started and finally have some independence and stability. Pathfinder has been amazing and I strongly recommend it to anyone in the Lower Mainland who needs help getting employed. Socialist employers = good

love being a system bc when one of us starts spiraling there's folks right there in the same brain to snap em out of it 💙

I want to thank the rest of my system for making good decisions and not getting us incarcerated or institutionalized. I know it's hard for some of you to avoid things like putting our arm in a garbage disposal or picking fights with the most sensitive pigs you can find. It makes my job building a life and having a job easier knowing you're as committed to not waking up strapped to a gurney as I am.

Warmest regards,

Ultraviolet
Reigning and defending host of The Nebulous Systems

just lying and listening to things is underrated

Aloysius (mostly): Wei finally came out to muir therapist as plural! And she was really cool about it. Apparently she used to work with a few systems years ago. When wei talked about our goal of healthy multiplicity and how, for us, that's not really integration, she was supportive. The systems she worked with in the past didn't want to integrate either. And she was like, "It's important for therapists to understand that therapy should be client led." Wei had been hoping to be open about our system in therapy, to have someone to discuss things with and help with self work. Wei shared some plural resources which she promised to look into. I'm looking forward to what we can do in our next session.

I have many different intests. Reading, writing, different sports, drawing, programming, paper-crafting, juggling. Could go on.

When I try to follow all of them in parallel (which I did), I never get anything done, or don't get better* at it. I feel like I'm pulled in so many directions at the same time, that I don't move at all. But I get sad if I have to limit myself.

At some point I thought #plurality would help to understand and balance those interests, too. But eventually that would mean that those few (two atm) creative and curious system members are systems on their own with different interests for each sub-member. And everyone tries to vote for their interests.

But that sounds like a huge mess, even for foggy me with limited insight. I guess something else is at work here, but I can't put my finger on it, let alone manage it properly.

*: Getting better is not a criterion, but would be nice to see every now and then.

finally gonna get my forearm crutches tomorrow! i've only been trying for OVER A YEAR to get some prescribed x x but finally! Magen fronts tomorrow and will pick them up but i'll have them Thursday :D quadruped upgrade!

I wonder how many people quite get that the Renaissance wasn't about Europeans _inventing_ things, usually someone else did that. it was about making massive piles of money off inventions

so uh

I wanna be on better behavior, here

gonna try to CW stuff generously. @chara, well, that's where I will be less careful. because I think there's an argument to be made that some things are too important to be hidden. but here...I don't wanna be too flagrant

lemme know if I screw up

just trying to do my best in this new situation

Really wishing we hadn't given up our dance practice when we were 16. It was so fun and I felt so free. I want it back.

💖

I have had my headphones on playing nothing for like 30 mins and have just remembered music exists...

I shouldn't have to shower, G-d should just clean me for free. :/
-Emi

being subtly anarchist at work today