Barkeep @Barkeep@plural.cafe

#enbymafia I know it was you, Fredo. And you broke my heart

I don’t know how I suddenly wrote 16 pages of a screenplay in one day but thanks me this is a pretty good feeling

Hello.

I am kind of at a low point and maybe I will start a new blog here.

Am lonely. Might like to meet new persons.

eyooo everyone, figured i’d make us an account in a friendly plural space, so here we are! not sure how much the others will toot, but it’s there if they feel like it!

– L.

@setsuna We have just under 400 users with over 500 interactions so far this week. Not bad for an instance that’s just one year old.

Systems who #LeftTwitter: Plural Café (plural.cafe) is an instance where collectives of all stripes can express themselves and get to know each other.

Please note that we don’t criticize origins or question legitimacy. Endogenic, traumagenic, quoi-genic, mixed-origin, median, diagnosed, self-diagnosed, and questioning multiples are welcome. 😊☕️

#DID #multiplicity #plural #plurality #multiple #OSDD

do you have any idea what its like to WANT to believe that there's something after death, to want to believe any reincarnation, but you cant? you want to believe in someone, but youre so conditioned that even when you say you believe it in the end you still lay awake at night and think about how it will all end at death? i SUFFER thinking about this all the time having unnecessary existential crises late at night in bed and I WANT to believe anything else. most people just believe something if they want to. as hard as ive been trying, i still fall back.

i'm afraid of posting too much but also want to constantly post.
- Nori (+?)

I’m really grateful for survivor-run blogs. Saw a post today about a tactic that had been used on us as a child, and it was so incredibly uplifting to know that it was real and that we weren’t wrong.

Survivors who write for the rest of us are heroes.

just had to stop all interaction with two systems because they are strictly anti-natural and post about it, which makes me uncomfortable. we are not endogenic, but most are a supporter of peace between systems.

cant we all just get along despite our differences?

- ?

good morning it is i, a big heckin question mark

- ?

welcome @psykes they're my best friend, singlet and incredibly supportive and want to learn whatever they can about systems!!

gonna be real i never know if anyone on this instance is talking about a systemmate or a person outside of their body and im pretty sure this also applies to myself

anyways so sometimes I draw and you guys should follow our art tunglr https://coffeehedonist.tumblr.com and our art insta, we're (@)coffeehedonistic on there lol. Have a Saki, I wanted to draw her ever since Spell watched zls lmao
-Uta

I want to curate a non-fiction anthology about multiplicity, containing different interviews (conducted by me) and pieces written by systems.

But I don’t know how to find a publishing house or editor.

since opening up to my therapist about our switches, idk honestly. i have no clue anymore.

the words i used to describe us... i directly called us alter egos. now i don't know anymore, because that seems so likely but also far from it. the others are almost TOO different from me, having pseudo-memories and all.

i've been using plural terms since age 14. the others formed at that time (expect Ryou who I don't know about. maybe age 10?), therefore i'm not DID nor OSDD.

we don't have switch amnesia at all.
i do have daily amnesia and dissociation. to the point it dangers me sometimes.

when a switch happens, i feel like i'm not myself very strongly, dysmorphic almost, i feel very different.

feels like we're somewhere between 'me' and 'us'. it's hard. i don't know what is going on with me and i will probably never know.

it feels good to open up though.

*theoretically you could compare systems with no trauma history to trauma based ones to non systems with trauma and non systems without but brain imaging being what it is you need to know the areas you want to look at and we don't actually know exactly what brain architecture is involved in dissociation.
this makes it prohibitively difficult to do the above since for an accurate picture of the differences you would need to compare everything if you don't know the specific areas. which would be a ridiculous amount of work in a two way study with enough people for a decent effect size let alone a 4x4 design like above
-smile

if you say that it's been scientifically proven that trauma causes multiplicity you either don't know what scientifically proven means or know of, and endorse, horrific abuse and presumably illegal experimentation.

to prove causation scientifically* entails an experiment with a control and test group and comparing the difference between the two.
in terms of sorting out causation of multiplicity that means purposely traumatizing a, fairly large if you want a decent effect size, group of children for years, in order to see if they end up plural. that is not only horrifically unethical and evil, there is no way to get that past an ethics board which means its never going to be done.

also science still can't agree if multiplicity is a real thing, so if you say that there is a fucking consensus on the cause you have no what you are talking about.

9 things that I learned today at host work

1.I can pretend to be host for 8 hours without anybody noticing.
2.White truffle oil both tastes and smells like kerosene and putting it on fries is morally wrong.
3.I am not as averse to tomatoes as my host is. I ate half a cherry tomato today and it wasn't like, good, but it didn't make me feel sick.
4.Torching crème brûlée is so much fucking fun.
5.Making croutons is a lot harder if the bread isn't already a little bit stale. Restaurant bread is only good to eat if it is warm and there is butter.
6. If I hadn't already learned some kitchen speak before I went in, I would have been fucked. The language of the kitchen isn't English, Spanish, or even Spanglish. It's Kitchen.
7.Kitchen people are a little weird. I like it.
8.Cooks don't eat meals. They eat stray fries and mistakes.
9.Holy shit, I do NOT want to be a line cook. I like doing the prep part but fuuuck the service part and the working in close physical proximity.

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A mug that says: "Don't ask us who we are until after we've had our coffee."