Barkeep @Barkeep@plural.cafe

I am too tired and sick to go into the full breadth of my thoughts, but speaking as a member of a bodily-PoC system who is becoming ever more weary of Westernization... please remember that DID, OSDD, the clinical, trauma-centric model of plurality, and to an extent, the rest of psychiatry

all of these are concepts largely created and dominated by white Westerners.

meanwhile, there are many non-white, non-Western cultures with their own concepts of manyness - many of which have been overwritten by the advance of "Western thought"

this does not mean that the clinical concepts are invalid or useless, or that people are bad for finding them helpful. but please be aware of what it implies, to claim that they can be the Only explanation (and that everyone who thinks otherwise is ignorant, malicious, fake, uneducated... "believing in fairytales.")

me: "oh look a pretty dress i wonder how much it costs"

price tag: One Hundred Sixty Dollars

me: *backs away slowly as if from a grizzly bear that hasn't quite noticed me yet*

{P} Anyway... if people would like a system pride day that *isn't* made by exclusionists and *doesn't* insinuate that "system" is a DID/OSDD-only word, check out https://pluralevents.org.

There's a Plural Acceptance Week from July 13th to July 19th, with a Plural Pride Day on July 18th! Everyone is welcome!

@ThePrimulaSystem For example we're so melded together & blend instead of cofront. But we feel like different people, not facets of a whole like median systems. We don't have a headspace. We have little/no idea why we're plural/where we came from (though sometimes we say endogenic bc no evidence of trauma). The way we front/switch is odd - it often feels like there's a switching between perceptive lenses over our consciousness, like those eye tests at the doctor💙

a host, also known as a system administrator--

On a logical level I know that every system is different, and there's esp. lots of variety among non-DID & endogenic systems. But emotionally I can't seem to stop feeling "different", insecure and like our experiences don't fit the narrative that they "should" fit. Many widely used system terms don't apply to us. A lot of online advice doesn't fit us. I often feel alienated & worried our plurality won't be believed even by origin-inclusive peoples :( 💙Blue

yesterday i was on speaker phone with my parents and my cat heard me talking

she started looking around for me and when she realized my voice was coming from the phone she started nuzzling it

I know works been hard on us lately but after a week of almost exclusively being able to lie in bed and watch YouTube going back to work yesterday did *wonders* for our mental health.
We need the structure it provides to not fall apart.

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So hey, I’m Phoebe, I’m our host, I’m the captain of this perpetually sinking ship we call ohshitspacecats
We also have Lilith, resident biologist and part time demon
And Becky, she’s a little glitchy, but she’s a good robot, I’m glad we have her.
We wanted to properly introduce ourselves on the platform.

do you ever just are a beep boop?

Ello everyone. Just gonna introduce ourselves. We’re the Feles System. And well we would do individual introductions but we’re really really big and that would take awhile. But some of our system members might post about them sometime. - Rin/Okumura

So... are there any aphantasic systems out there that have a headspace/innerworld/etc.?

I'm asking because a headmate of mine tried to build one but failed and I think it might be because we're almost aphantastic and he tried to visualize the innerworld.
So now I'm curious if aphatasic system can even have an innerworld and if so, if it is experienced differently from how non-aphatasic folks experience there innerworlds.

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yes Phoebe named all the pokemon, why do you ask?

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i just downloaded pokemon colosseum because i haven't played it in forever and wanted to try it again

you can't choose a female character so i'm taking out my unhappiness on the playable character

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deans (denim jeans)

a demon randomly appeared next to me and threatened to eat a traffic light "and make it pay"

i love my partner

refusing to use CWs when asked to do so is ableist horseshit don't @ me

that was not the best way to learn how to actually restore the database properly, but we're here now

only took like... 18 hours of downtime for me to figure that out

We're live again! Thanks for waiting, everyone. Things from today should start filling in now.

so i was having this real cool daydream about getting taken home by a hot girl in a gay bar and then like 20 minutes in i realized this girl i dreamed up was literally just @dragon

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