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Me: "Hey, I'm plural!"
A friend: "Oh, nice! More friends for the same money!"

Wow, okay, being a persecutor definitely has its benefits. I just yelled at a manipulating asshat that keeps bugging us and makes 🐼, 💖 and 🐻 scared shitless. ☯️ has his hands full on the innerworld, comforting the three all at once - even the cat is around less than normally. So, I'm apparently stuck with fronting while we're near him, and today he really crossed a line. I don't want to yell because the body is too high-pitched for me, but it couldn't be helped. I think I made the asshat back off a little.

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One of these days I'll remember to take my night meds an hour before going to bed. Which would have been an hour ago. x)

(I mean, it's not too bad. One of the piles makes me tired as a (welcome) side effect, another one has the same effect as it's main effort - both kick in about an hour after I took them. I still manage to fall asleep, but usually later than intended. If I'd just remember to take the meds a biiit earlier, I could probably fall asleep faster. No big deal if I don't, but still. It would be great. x) )

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"make eye contact so I know you're paying attention to me"
"ok" [concentrates on making eye contact and immediately can't focus on anything you're saying]

hey listen we should stop in system bickering with each other and focus on our strengths

rae is ASSERTIVE
aspen is KIND
lyr is THOUGHTFUL
lucretia is SMART
lumi is CARING
starling is CREATIVE
luz is BRAVE
io
nebula is ADORABLE
thorn is COMPASSIONATE

Tell your conservative relatives that climate change made you queer

that and it's an excuse to say nice things about my sysmates

sshhhh nobody tell these idiots I like them

❤️​ Guess who got a new outfit yesterday, has been fronting for longer than usual, and looks damn hot

#art #drawings #abstract

number one reason i wanna quit my job is because the dress code doesnt allow for "unnatural hair colors"
euuuugh corporate life is so oppressive

listen this is actually a big deal for me- since going to college, my appearance has become my canvas for my style and its really important to me to properly express myself in this way, and i take a lot of pride in my appearance, so basically being limited in that regard makes me feel trapped
plus, weird thing, natural hair colors make me feel conformist in a way that makes me squicky to no end. literally no offence to the other people who like them, but when /I/ have to have them they remind me of fitting someone else's mold. no can do.

you may own most of my time but you shouldnt get to own my body, fuck you corporate america

@Dayglochainsaw Every time they fuck up, say this

If you understand something, you can explain it simply using plain language. If you can't, then save it for your limited academic audiences. It's not only academics who do this, too. Activists at all levels are guilty of it, too, using terminology that is limited to their individual communities. It's true that more privileged people could bother to educate themselves in some cases, but not everyone has the ability or resources to do so. You should strive to be understandable as much as others should strive to understand.

Hi. Don't say "women and enbies" if you only mean enbies with vulvas.

Thanks,
UV

💧: Knowing we are someone's "horror story" kinda sucks. Like we scare people enough to silence a room type level if we openly talk about being plural in public.

So imagine our memories are like text files. Not fancy Word or Google Docs or LibreOffice Writer text files, plain txt files without any sort of formating. And while we all store these memories.txts on a shared hard drive, we have different ways of organizing them.

Imagine Lilly having a structure for her files. A folder per day, inside chronologically sorted files, each containing a certain situation. Each file has
# Headlines
and
## Subheadlines
and has the infos in short, precise sentences.

Gotos might only have one folder, but all the files are named 2019-09-06-23:01.txt or similar. Inside he uses
h1. Headlines
with no subheadlines and he writes complex sentences. Precise, for sure, but usually not short.

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And I'll have neat folder and subfolders, that are not really ordered by any chronology but by types and subtypes of situations. The file names are names for the specific situations like first_time_fronting_at_work.txt. They contain only bullet points with apparent structure whatsoever, but I find my way around.

No imagine you want to remember something, but you weren't fronting or co-conscious at that time. Gotos and Lilly kinda have similiar structures, but still the details of their structures differ. And my structure is just totally different.
Essentially, instead of knowing immediately where to look, you have to search through a bunch of files and hope you find the one containing the memory you need.

Obviously they way I described our individual style of organizing these files are made up. Memories are not just text files and I do think I have some sort of structure to my memories. But as an analogy, this works reasonably well, I think.

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So I promised a thread about how we experience our shared memory.

When we realized we are a system and started looking into what that actual means for us, we quickly realized that we all shared our memories. But we also realized, that our memories are still kinda different from one another. It's most apparent if two (or more) of us are co-conscious - essentially, we later remember different "versions" of whatever happened during that time, which each version having filtered the information a bit differently. So for example when Lilly and Gotos are co-conscious, while Lilly might remember feeling safe around someone, Gotos might remember that the same person made him uneasy. We all have access to both these memories, and they will be similar, but they are not equal. Whoever accesses those memories will filter the information even further when remembering - but less so for own memories. But when e.g. Gotos remembers something only Lilly saw, he might take it with a grain of salt

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Watching the criminal minds episodes about DID is the worst the representation is so bad about the actual disorder. "Make an evil alter to do the killing for u" 🙄

Meanwhile in my system: who the fuck ordered this from Zulily guys we don't get paid til Thursday gdi

Pokemon Go is making me go outside again because i actually live within walking distance of several pokestops and two gyms

i went outside on my own today just to get the pokestop down the street! :o thats big for me! agoraphobia + no friends + years of being a shut-in for other reasons makes it so hard to leave the house and this is actually giving me motivation to again. Im glad it got updates.